I downloaded Kim Hyun Joong’s live version of ‘Creep’ by Radiohead performed at Budokan 2012 from Youtube again last night. I had this song on my old phone, and lost it when I changed phones. I finally found it again and have been playing it on repeat all morning and fighting back tears. I am not sad. I am moved. This song was a popular tune in the United States about 20 years ago. I liked the song when it was playing on the radio stations here constantly during it’s height. I did not purchase the song and I did not go to any of their concerts or anything like that. I liked the song. That was all. Now, I LOVE this song! Not just because Kim Hyun Joong covered it, but because of HOW he covered it. When I listen to his little introduction before starting the song, I can’t understand a word of what he is saying in Korean. It doesn’t matter. Just the gentle sound of his voice, and the inflections he makes when he makes a joke in Japanese and teases the fans makes me feel warm and happy. I don’t need to understand the words he is saying, because I understand the Emotion he is Evoking. This happens all before he even sings the first note.
Waiting to Hear the News of Kim Hyun Joong's Future Plans, We Imagine Many Possibilities, Making Peace with the Unknown as All Roads Eventually Lead Home
THE WILL OF GOD WILL NOT TAKE YOU WHERE THE GRACE OF GOD WILL NOT PROTECT YOU
As we continue to wait anxiously to hear from KeyEast or Kim Hyun Joong regarding future plans, we are feeling restless and stressed because we are so invested in our hearts. As we offer our undying support and fervent prayers on his behalf, we are desperately begging for a positive outcome for Hyun Joong that leads to his ultimate happiness. I have considered that perhaps we are feeling a bit possessive and selfish regarding his plans and could be a bit like the pot calling the kettle black when we are feeling that his ex’s obsession was too much burden for him. Now, we are wanting him to do MORE! MORE! MORE! Professionally, and are worried sick that he may be denied the opportunity to do so. I am beginning to feel quite selfish and a bit guilty and regretful thinking he may be feeling more pressure because of the knowledge that his fans are afraid of losing him as their Only One. I understand that we just love him so much, but honestly the fear of losing him as an Public Figure and Entertainer is the beginning of obsession as well, and I am taking a step back to evaluate: What would be best for Hyun Joong? I have already stated that I want him to do whatever it is that makes him happy, and whatever that may be is entirely up to Hyun Joong.
As We Have Watched the Public Trial and Execution of Our Only One, We Are Distraught With Worry, Wanting to Rescue and Shield Him From the Fire. If He is to Rise, He Must Stand on His Own, Face His Future with Faith and Fight for His Dreams.
As I write this, I am realizing that recent events will not be able to be put to rest and completely forgotten as I wished them to be. As we watch and wait for what will come next, they are now a part of our experience with Kim Hyun Joong. Even though the memories are excruciatingly painful, and we are still hurting as we worry about the consequences, they have taught us to appreciate and understand him more deeply than ever. They have taught us that we are capable of much more than superficial admiration. We are capable of real forgiveness in the midst of our pain and disappointment. Yes, I am disappointed that my sweet dear Angel lost his self control. It has caused so much pain for everyone involved, his ex, her friends and family, and himself and his friends, family, and fans. I could be seriously angry with him for making the wrong choice in the heat of that moment if I did not have so much love in my heart. Was it only the ex that ruined everything for him? Truthfully, no. If he had kept his head in that situation, she would not have been able to do what she has done. Technically, we could say it's all his fault to begin with and throw up our hands in disgust and defeat. He has admitted to doing something a man should never do, and for some, that was reason enough to abandon him and walk away.
Center. Clarity. Peace. Serenity. Reflection. Focus and Future. After the Devastating Storm, Kim Hyun Joong can Take a Well Earned Rest and Find His Way Home
Kim Hyun Joong's Official Apology this week was like a huge stone being thrown into the still lake of our hearts. After spending our strength and emotional energy showing him strong support through this stormy chapter in our lives as Idol and fans, it seemed shocking and abrupt. However, in his wisdom, he has effectively stopped this whole nightmare cold in it's tracks. He resolved the situation with Honesty and Humility. I have come to expect this from him after knowing him these years. Honesty and Humility are his signature moves, and I identify with them well. I am thankful that it is over, and I am thankful to Kim Hyun Joong for shouldering the whole mess and carrying it away like a 1 TON Gendong full of watermelons on his strong and steady back. For taking that burden out of our sight, I applaud him as a Hero among Men. He is truly wonderful and awe inspiring in the way he handles himself in times of personal crisis. My heart is deeply touched and forever changed by his Brave Example. Every step he takes draws me deeper into this surreal and beautiful bond I feel with him and my fellow fans, and I will never be the same. Kim Hyun Joong is a daily inspiration to me and my heart is fused to his like steel upon steel forming the strongest, unbreakable sword. He can never be cut out. He will never be forgotten or replaced. He has fulfilled his own prophecy and become our Only One for Eternity and beyond.
I've been writing about Kim Hyun Joong since 2011. He is always busy and happy and I love to read about him and write my reactions and feelings about his work and his public life. I want a place where Alien Family can gather and discuss their beloved, Kim Hyun Joong.