So, as I promised, I am reporting my feelings and observations as I re-watch for the 8th time Boys Over Flowers. I do this twice per year as time allows in my busy life. Attack for my Addiction usually hits about every 6 months. I just have to go back and fall in love all over again with Yoon Ji Hoo who introduced me to Kim Hyun Joong in January of 2011. I had just come out of a week long stay in the hospital after having surgery to remove a serious and life threatening infection. I was home bound. I could not leave my little apartment for an entire month due to the possibility of re-infection and also because the infection I had was highly contagious. I could pass it to others as well. To say the least, I was in physical pain healing from surgery. I was also deeply depressed. It was the dead of winter, the hardest time of year for me since I tend to suffer from SADD. (Seasonal Affective Depressive Disorder) and, I was still recovering from my Divorce. I had isolated myself socially because of the deep betrayal I suffered and just could not bring myself to trust others. It was one of the lowest times in my life.
As We Have Watched the Public Trial and Execution of Our Only One, We Are Distraught With Worry, Wanting to Rescue and Shield Him From the Fire. If He is to Rise, He Must Stand on His Own, Face His Future with Faith and Fight for His Dreams.
As I write this, I am realizing that recent events will not be able to be put to rest and completely forgotten as I wished them to be. As we watch and wait for what will come next, they are now a part of our experience with Kim Hyun Joong. Even though the memories are excruciatingly painful, and we are still hurting as we worry about the consequences, they have taught us to appreciate and understand him more deeply than ever. They have taught us that we are capable of much more than superficial admiration. We are capable of real forgiveness in the midst of our pain and disappointment. Yes, I am disappointed that my sweet dear Angel lost his self control. It has caused so much pain for everyone involved, his ex, her friends and family, and himself and his friends, family, and fans. I could be seriously angry with him for making the wrong choice in the heat of that moment if I did not have so much love in my heart. Was it only the ex that ruined everything for him? Truthfully, no. If he had kept his head in that situation, she would not have been able to do what she has done. Technically, we could say it's all his fault to begin with and throw up our hands in disgust and defeat. He has admitted to doing something a man should never do, and for some, that was reason enough to abandon him and walk away.
I've been writing about Kim Hyun Joong since 2011. He is always busy and happy and I love to read about him and write my reactions and feelings about his work and his public life. I want a place where Alien Family can gather and discuss their beloved, Kim Hyun Joong.