Kim Hyun Joong's Official Apology this week was like a huge stone being thrown into the still lake of our hearts.  After spending our strength and emotional energy showing him strong support through this stormy chapter in our lives as Idol and fans, it seemed shocking and abrupt.  However, in his wisdom, he has effectively stopped this whole nightmare cold in it's tracks. He resolved the situation with Honesty and Humility.  I have come to expect this from him after knowing him these years.  Honesty and Humility are his signature moves, and I identify with them well.  I am thankful that it is over, and I am thankful to Kim Hyun Joong for shouldering the whole mess and carrying it away like a 1 TON Gendong full of watermelons on his strong and steady back.  For taking that burden out of our sight, I applaud him as a Hero among Men.  He is truly wonderful and awe inspiring in the way he handles himself in times of personal crisis.  My heart is deeply touched and forever changed by his Brave Example.  Every step he takes draws me deeper into this surreal and beautiful bond I feel with him and my fellow fans, and I will never be the same.  Kim Hyun Joong is a daily inspiration to me and my heart is fused to his like steel upon steel forming the strongest, unbreakable sword.  He can never be cut out.  He will never be forgotten or replaced.  He has fulfilled his own prophecy and become our Only One for Eternity and beyond.

Today is a Beautiful and Sunny day with moderate Temperatures in the Low 70s.  I am working in my apartment with my windows open enjoying a cool fresh breeze and I am feeling happy and content.  Why am I giving you a weather report and telling you my mood?  Because, I want you to take your emotional temperature.  Gage for me how you are feeling at this moment.  Recent Media Reports have stirred up a hornet's nest in the hearts of Kim Hyun Joong's fans, and the emotional response I am seeing is breaking my heart.  I dearly love my sisters in this group of lovely people who have gathered around the man I have come to think of as my Compass.  Kim Hyun Joong's Beauty, Humility, Strength, Wisdom and Love have made my life so much happier in the past four years.  Part of that Love has extended to so many new friends I have had the privilege of meeting around the world, and I experience true Joy in my heart on a daily basis as I interact and share my heart with them.

A Wing and A Prayer by AngelJoong86

I feel like I'm choking and struggling to breathe
The thick air around me is starting to Seethe 
The sickly sweet stench of Evil fills the air
Suffocating my soul with it's Foul Breathing Stare
Sour Sweat, Stale Beer and Cheap Cigarettes
I'm gasping and struggling and Fighting for breath
Let me OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE
Let me breathe in FRESH AIR
Where the Sun is still Shining
A cool breeze ruffs my hair
The music of leaves rustling softly in trees
Refreshing and Peaceful I'm longing to see
The sweet smile of My LOVE
Let me hear her soft voice
Whispering my name, calling me out of the VOID

I am sick of DECEPTION, LIES and  BARE GREED!
There's a rope at my neck and chains 'round my feet
I struggle and fight, I want to be freed
Yet the Stones weigh me down
And in Hell's murky waters, I'm starting to drown
It seems that I've sunken in over my head
Where is my Hope?  Where is my Help?
Where are my Protectors?  Where are my Knights?
Where is Blind Justice?  Am I Alone in this Fight?

It's OK, My Love, You are Precious to me
It crowds out all 'else and allows you to 'just be.'
All my selfish desires to KNOW and be RIGHT
mean nothing at all as FEAR takes it's bite
Rest here in my arms with our memories of LOVE
Let these sustain you, BREAK OUT, Rise Above
Just Breathe.  It may feel like drowning but breathe deeply my scent
Listen to the warmth of my voice speaking softly in your ears
A gentle caress dries your cheeks stained with tears

Listen....

A rasp of a whisper becomes a soft rolling Hum
Like a Drum in the Distance, Thrrrum, Thrrrum
Draw Strength, Grasp Hope, Grab onto My Hand
Let me pull you back up, lift your chin up and Stand
Tall and Proud, Hold your Head High
We run through blooming fields and over the rise
You can hear them, they're chanting, you can hear their strong cries
Kim Hyun Joong!  Kim Hyun Joong!  They are shouting your name
They are waiting for you to take up your rightful claim
They are gathered far from the North, West, East and South
They are waiting for you,  your heart's Dream to Come True

From Every Tongue of Every Nation they have come to this place
An Aura of Beautiful, Colorful Light shines out from every face
Like Aurora Borealis so Bright in the Sky!  Your Breath is Taken Away!
Take up your Instrument and feel the sudden hush
The anticipated pause gives your Adrenaline a rush
It is YOUR DREAM, all your FANS and a Stage of Only One
No Ticket sales or Profits or Public Persona to sell
Just You and Your Bride, no Beauty to Hide
Sing out the first note and the tears will flow down
Our hearts swell and explode with the warmth of the Sound
Just Sing out your Heart and give us your Best
And with the Last Note, you can Finally  Take Rest
We'll catch you and hold you and gently fall down
And sleep with the Peace of a True Love that's Found
Rest in Your Soul and gather Your Strength
From the Ashes of Fire a Phoenix is born
Rise up on Strong Wings and Soar Ever High
Leaving Sorrow Behind as we sing "Fly, Angel, Fly!"

For My Angel, My ONLY ONE

Inspired With All My Love,

Angie Noonim

Although Kim Hyun Joong's Assault Charges have broken him and his fans to pieces, we are closer than ever before because we have discovered the true value of each other, and the true meaning of love.  To be honest, When I began writing this article, I got completely lost pouring out all of my frustrations over the distorted reports of Kim Hyun Joong's sincere and honest admission to his part in the heart sickening mess that is now the remains of  his short and stormy relationship with his ex-girlfriend.  I wanted to vent and give my own liberal interpretations of what I think actually happened since Hyun Joong is being such a Gentleman and only offering enough insight to give his version of the truth.  I am awed that he has continued to protect her in this way.  And truth be told, he should not be required to be more forthcoming.  What happened is a private matter, and his celebrity status does not negate that fact.  Because he has been forced to defend himself publicly, he was cooperative with the Police Investigation and admitted to the occurrence of ONE fight that ended with the two becoming 'entangled' after a physical confrontation.  The news articles have taken this and once again blown it wide open making it seem as though he has admitted to beating up his helpless girlfriend over 'women' issues.  Hyun Joong's only response was that the fight was about breaking up,  and it only happened the one time, not repeatedly as she claimed and the tabloid articles have been perpetuating.

After scouring for updates on Kim Hyun Joong's long awaited Testimony regarding the abuse allegations filed two weeks ago by his ex-girlfriend, I found only tabloid reports stating he had gone to the Police Station for questioning and had not made any statements to the media.  For that , I am thankful, as I am sure he is being advised by his Lawyer not to release any public statements until after his questioning is completed.  He went in on Tuesday September 2nd sometime in the afternoon or evening Seoul Time, and Police stated his questioning would probably last long into the night.  My heart is with him as he is going through this difficult ordeal, and I found myself praying for him at work this afternoon as it suddenly hit me that he needed that prayer right at that moment in time.