The Potent Power of Projecting our Pain and Protecting our Hearts Can Paralyze us in Fear Causing Trust and Communication to Collapse. The Key to Overcome is to Remain Vulnerable and Open While Continuously Choosing a Path of Love and Light
I have to share with my beloved readers and Fan Family that I have been in a state of Paralyzing Pain and Complete Confusion for the past several weeks. I am Physically Fine. It is my emotional state that has been in Turmoil. That is the main reason I have not posted anything here during this EVENTFUL time as a fan of Kim Hyun Joong. I have started many blog post articles only to abandon those thoughts knowing I was not expressing my true heart. I have been agonizing with doubt on whether to share something with you that was a very negative and painful experience for me related to being a fan of Kim Hyun Joong. I had to take some serious time to myself to meditate and pray and decide what my TRUE HEART was trying to tell me and what my TRUE SELF wanted to reveal. Let me just clarify, the pain of going through this Horrible Scandal with Kim Hyun Joong and his Fans, his Beautiful Henecia, is NOT to what I am referring. That pain, I have been able to withstand with the help of some beautiful and loving fans whom I call my SISTERS IN LOVE and we have all fallen more deeply in love with Kim Hyun Joong and each other.
Kim Hyun Joong's Military Enlistment, Mismanagement and Miracles in the Making
Kim Hyun Joong and that naughty tongue! So Cute!
I had a reader make a very interesting comment recently regarding her thoughts on what Kim Hyun Joong might be feeling as he receives so much love from fans all over the world. She stated that he is probably very confused by this unconditional love and feeling that he is undeserving of such loyalty and devotion. I responded to her that if he felt deserving of it, well then, he would not be. Ironic to be sure, but nevertheless true. This comment has given me a lot of food for thought this past week about the power of celebrity and how we still put Hyun Joong up on a pedestal even though we admit that we know very well just how human he is. It is difficult for us not to place him up there because he is such an amazing individual. We fully recognize his faults, but his virtues outweigh them so heavily, we still ‘idolize’ him to a degree that may be seen as unhealthy or unrealistic to others who are not fans and especially to Kim Hyun Joong himself. I have been letting this idea soak in to my brain and heart for this entire week, and I am still trying to put myself in his position to see how he might be feeling about everything that has happened. I have concluded that we place those we love up on high pedestals in our hearts whether they are a World Renowned ‘Global Star’ or an Amazing Spouse, Lover, Best Friend, Sibling, Parent, Spiritual Leader or Mentor. It is human nature to do so. It’s not that we are ignoring a person’s humanity and faults, we just choose to let them fade into the background of our thoughts and focus on the parts of them we see as perfect. We are not disillusioned, simply selective.
I've been writing about Kim Hyun Joong since 2011. He is always busy and happy and I love to read about him and write my reactions and feelings about his work and his public life. I want a place where Alien Family can gather and discuss their beloved, Kim Hyun Joong.