Center. Clarity. Peace. Serenity. Reflection. Focus and Future. After the Devastating Storm, Kim Hyun Joong can Take a Well Earned Rest and Find His Way Home
I hope he can forgive me for being a bit selfish and human too. She has stolen something Precious from us. I forgive her, because I know she deserves love and forgiveness just like everyone else, and I know she did it out of her pain. However, she hurt Kim Hyun Joong so much, and he is the one I Truly Love. She hurt him, she Publicly Shamed him, and she robbed him of his Livelihood. I am not talking about his ability to earn a paycheck here. I am talking about his love and passion for his art, and his tenderness toward his fans. He may have wronged her, but she did not have the right to take everything away from him the way she has. I am sorry, Hyun Joong, I am trying so hard, but I am just so broken over this. Mostly because your heart has been broken, but I am feeling a little selfish too. It was your choice to leave, and she punished you well beyond what was fair or just. I can't keep silent about that anymore. I have not abandoned my intent to treat her with dignity and to respect your wishes as I represent you. I hope you can forgive me for breaking at this point and just expressing my pain. I am in pain because you are in pain, and I am going to miss you so much. We had precious little time left before your enlistment, and it has been taken from us. That is just the way I feel. It feels good to get it off my chest.
As we all know, Hyun Joong has been through a harrowing ordeal these past weeks. We have experienced the emotions with him; however we cannot fathom the depths of what he has been experiencing. It has taken a serious toll, and as I watched the pictures and videos on my Twitter feed from the last concert at Nagoya, I could see the exhaustion in his face, hear it in his voice, and felt myself cringe and cried as his smiles were only half smiles and not the bright smile we are so longing to see. What I want to say to him is, “Hyun Joong-ah, it’s ok to be NOT OK.” I want him to know that he can take the break and rest he needs and not have to worry about ME as his fan. This is not about me; it’s about what’s best for HIM. If he is ready to step back and breathe for a while, I want him to do whatever he needs to do to process, heal, and renew his spirit. I will be patiently waiting for him no matter how long it takes. And, if he decides he has had his day in the sun, and wants to pursue something other than being in the Public Eye, he does not need to worry about what I want. I am just a fan. I have no bearing on the personal decisions he needs to make. I know Hyun Joong deeply cares about his fans. But, this time, I want him to care about and take care of himself, regardless of what we want. I love him that much. I love him enough to let him go if he needs to go. I love him enough to just let him be.
I scoured the Nagoya Airport Pictures to find a Smiling Hyun Joong. This was the only thing even Close. Oh my Precious, Weary One. I love you so much and Your Pain is My Pain. My Heart is Heavy, But I have Hope for Your Future! We will see that Smile of a Thousand Suns Again!
Boys over Flowers
We Got Married
Thank You for Waking Me Up
Old SS501 Reality Shows and Interviews
Fan Meets and the beginning of Hi-5 Sessions
Charitable Donations and Acts
Breakdown, Lucky Guy
Awards, Awards, Awards
Record Breaking and More Awards
Phantasm World Tour
The MIRACLE of LOVE through Adversity
The Future with Kim Hyun Joong
I will be forever sending my Love to Reach out and Comfort you through Cyber Space! Please find Security and Peace in your heart. You will always be my ONLY ONE, Kim Hyun Joong!