My morning drive today was difficult and stressful. A thick fog had set in while I slept, and I was running late for work. I had to drive blind for a bit while my car slowly gathered heat from the engine to clear the moisture from my windows. As I drove down the freeway, I could not see ahead like I can on a clear day and I nearly missed my exit. When I finally saw the signs pointing to my daily destination, it was almost too late to get over in the lane to get off the freeway. I made it just barely and arrived at work right on time, on the dot, not a second to waste. That feeling of urgency and blindness made me think of the turmoil of emotions I have been experiencing ever since Kim Hyun Joong finished up his Phantasm World Tour and went on a hiatus from the spotlight in October of this year. I have been missing him so desperately, and I have no signs pointing to the future ahead. It is a feeling of fear and restlessness, straining for any sign of proof that the future I am waiting for will indeed materialize. It leaves a lump in my throat the size of a boulder, and I struggle to hold back my tears.
I've been writing about Kim Hyun Joong since 2011. He is always busy and happy and I love to read about him and write my reactions and feelings about his work and his public life. I want a place where Alien Family can gather and discuss their beloved, Kim Hyun Joong.