As we continue to wait anxiously to hear from KeyEast or Kim Hyun Joong regarding future plans,  we are feeling restless and stressed because we are so invested in our hearts.  As we offer our undying support and fervent prayers on his behalf, we are desperately begging for a positive outcome for Hyun Joong that leads to his ultimate happiness.  I have considered that perhaps we are feeling a bit possessive and selfish regarding his plans and could be a bit like the pot calling the kettle black when we are feeling that his ex’s obsession was too much burden for him.  Now, we are wanting him to do MORE! MORE!  MORE! Professionally, and are worried sick that he may be denied the opportunity to do so.  I am beginning to feel quite selfish and a bit guilty and regretful thinking he may be feeling more pressure because of the knowledge that his fans are afraid of losing him as their Only One.  I understand that we just love him so much, but honestly the fear of losing him as an Public Figure and Entertainer is the beginning of obsession as well, and I am taking a step back to evaluate:  What would be best for Hyun Joong?  I have already stated that I want him to do whatever it is that makes him happy, and whatever that may be is entirely up to Hyun Joong.

I am going to start off by apologizing for the contents of this article to my Precious Kim Hyun Joong.  If you are reading this baby, you may want to just stop RIGHT HERE. If you are a fan reading this and are done hearing about the subject we are now so happy to leave behind us, Please, DO NOT click "Read More."  Just move on to something else, and come back when I publish the next piece.  I promise to be back to the loving, peaceful and gentle Eunie/Noona you know and trust. I don’t want to stir up things for you which have already been processed and released.  If you are intrigued, or may need to vent your own pain and frustration that you have been holding back, please feel free to continue and let me get it off our chests once and for all.  Big Sister has been holding it in, biting her tongue for the sake of her precious doengsang Hyun Joongie.  I fully intended to leave this article UNPUBLISHED.  Just a ghost in the archive of drafts I start when I am blessed with ideas for topics to be pulled out when I need to meet you here to share our Kim Hyun Joong.  This one probably needed to STAY buried, but I have found that over the last two days while trying to take a rest, release my emotions, and move forward with a positive step toward the future, I am unable to get this out of my blood.  I am agitated, irritable and unsettled.  So, I am going to let it out there.  I hope it does not hurt Hyun Joong or his fans.  I would never want to pick at the sores we are now nursing.  Please, forgive me for this uncharacteristically negative post.  I promise, I will be normal again tomorrow.  Here goes:  IF YOUR'E READY, Click 'Read More' Now...

A Wing and A Prayer by AngelJoong86

I feel like I'm choking and struggling to breathe
The thick air around me is starting to Seethe 
The sickly sweet stench of Evil fills the air
Suffocating my soul with it's Foul Breathing Stare
Sour Sweat, Stale Beer and Cheap Cigarettes
I'm gasping and struggling and Fighting for breath
Let me OUT OF THIS NIGHTMARE
Let me breathe in FRESH AIR
Where the Sun is still Shining
A cool breeze ruffs my hair
The music of leaves rustling softly in trees
Refreshing and Peaceful I'm longing to see
The sweet smile of My LOVE
Let me hear her soft voice
Whispering my name, calling me out of the VOID

I am sick of DECEPTION, LIES and  BARE GREED!
There's a rope at my neck and chains 'round my feet
I struggle and fight, I want to be freed
Yet the Stones weigh me down
And in Hell's murky waters, I'm starting to drown
It seems that I've sunken in over my head
Where is my Hope?  Where is my Help?
Where are my Protectors?  Where are my Knights?
Where is Blind Justice?  Am I Alone in this Fight?

It's OK, My Love, You are Precious to me
It crowds out all 'else and allows you to 'just be.'
All my selfish desires to KNOW and be RIGHT
mean nothing at all as FEAR takes it's bite
Rest here in my arms with our memories of LOVE
Let these sustain you, BREAK OUT, Rise Above
Just Breathe.  It may feel like drowning but breathe deeply my scent
Listen to the warmth of my voice speaking softly in your ears
A gentle caress dries your cheeks stained with tears

Listen....

A rasp of a whisper becomes a soft rolling Hum
Like a Drum in the Distance, Thrrrum, Thrrrum
Draw Strength, Grasp Hope, Grab onto My Hand
Let me pull you back up, lift your chin up and Stand
Tall and Proud, Hold your Head High
We run through blooming fields and over the rise
You can hear them, they're chanting, you can hear their strong cries
Kim Hyun Joong!  Kim Hyun Joong!  They are shouting your name
They are waiting for you to take up your rightful claim
They are gathered far from the North, West, East and South
They are waiting for you,  your heart's Dream to Come True

From Every Tongue of Every Nation they have come to this place
An Aura of Beautiful, Colorful Light shines out from every face
Like Aurora Borealis so Bright in the Sky!  Your Breath is Taken Away!
Take up your Instrument and feel the sudden hush
The anticipated pause gives your Adrenaline a rush
It is YOUR DREAM, all your FANS and a Stage of Only One
No Ticket sales or Profits or Public Persona to sell
Just You and Your Bride, no Beauty to Hide
Sing out the first note and the tears will flow down
Our hearts swell and explode with the warmth of the Sound
Just Sing out your Heart and give us your Best
And with the Last Note, you can Finally  Take Rest
We'll catch you and hold you and gently fall down
And sleep with the Peace of a True Love that's Found
Rest in Your Soul and gather Your Strength
From the Ashes of Fire a Phoenix is born
Rise up on Strong Wings and Soar Ever High
Leaving Sorrow Behind as we sing "Fly, Angel, Fly!"

For My Angel, My ONLY ONE

Inspired With All My Love,

Angie Noonim

Although Kim Hyun Joong's Assault Charges have broken him and his fans to pieces, we are closer than ever before because we have discovered the true value of each other, and the true meaning of love.  To be honest, When I began writing this article, I got completely lost pouring out all of my frustrations over the distorted reports of Kim Hyun Joong's sincere and honest admission to his part in the heart sickening mess that is now the remains of  his short and stormy relationship with his ex-girlfriend.  I wanted to vent and give my own liberal interpretations of what I think actually happened since Hyun Joong is being such a Gentleman and only offering enough insight to give his version of the truth.  I am awed that he has continued to protect her in this way.  And truth be told, he should not be required to be more forthcoming.  What happened is a private matter, and his celebrity status does not negate that fact.  Because he has been forced to defend himself publicly, he was cooperative with the Police Investigation and admitted to the occurrence of ONE fight that ended with the two becoming 'entangled' after a physical confrontation.  The news articles have taken this and once again blown it wide open making it seem as though he has admitted to beating up his helpless girlfriend over 'women' issues.  Hyun Joong's only response was that the fight was about breaking up,  and it only happened the one time, not repeatedly as she claimed and the tabloid articles have been perpetuating.

I have to try a post from my phone for my Angel's Birthday at least.   I have had some inquires as to where I've been and if I'm OK.   I have been without a computer and only have my phone at this time to connect with my fellow Kim Hyun Joong fans.   mostly on Twitter and I am so grateful for those who post daily updates.

I ordered my copies of Hot Sun and can't wait until they are released!   I also watched and re watched every episode of IG loving Mr Shin Jung Tae and feeling so proud of my Angel turned Action Hero Hyun Joong.

my proudest moment was when I read an article / interview where Hyun Joong talked about how difficult it was to break out of the prejudice of starting out as a kpop idol in order to be taken seriously as an actor.

Now,  with the success of IG,  he is finally being recognized for his talent and hard work!   I am so happy for him  my heart might burst!   What better birthday gift for Hyun Joong than this!

and his gift back to his fans?   a new album release Hot Sun and a world tour!   I still haven't seen a US date on the schedule,  but hopes and dreams are free,  right?

Happy Birthday,  my Angel Kim Hyun Joong!   thank you for the gift of yourself.   my life has been made so much happier because you give so much of yourself.   thank you sincerely from the bottom of my heart.   many blessings in the future to you.   saranghe!   --Angie noonim!

News of Hyun Joong's Drama has finally surfaced after nearly two months of nervous waiting.  I have been missing my Angel so much during this time as the media has been relatively quiet about his activities.  Other than reports of his withdrawal from Barefoot Friends to focus on filming the drama, not much has been going around.  Fans were tweeting old photos of Hyun Joong to keep him in their thoughts as we waited breathlessly for any news.  We can now breathe a sigh of relief just knowing the Cast has had their first table reading and filming will begin very shortly.

So, I ordered my copy at YesAsia.com and I will wait anxiously to receive it.  It won't be actually available until July 31, 2013.  HAPPY AUGUST!  I can't wait.  This is not a full article as I am still busy at work.  I was just excited about my pre-order.  I have not found a digital copy that will download to my phone as of yet.  Once I find that... my happiness will be complete!  ^^ ke ke!  Have fun Aliens... Hyun Joong is taking us for another exciting ride!  Just love it!

News of Kim Hyun Joong's latest record breaking achievement came out yesterday as Japan's Oricon chart revealed him as the first Korean Artist to break 100,000 copies for first day sales 3 times in a row.  His Singles Kiss Kiss/Lucky Guy, Heat and Tonight broke the chart records and snagged him #1 and #2 spots on the Oricon Chart.  Kim Hyun Joong also broke 100,000 copies for his first day sales on his full album Unlimited as well.  Hyun Joong's Japanese label, Universal Japan stated: